In particular, the last five years have been an incredible roller coaster full of blood, sweat and tears. I never envisioned that having children was going to be as difficult as it was.
After Rio in 2016, I discovered I had endometriosis and wouldn’t be able to conceive naturally. I went through IVF treatment, gave birth via C-section and six months later, I was competing at the Commonwealth Games.
After the games, my husband and I decided we wanted to try for another child. Doctors had told me I would experience menopause by my early-40s – it was now or never. Again, I fell pregnant through IVF and gave birth to my son via a second C-section in March 2019.
By this stage, my body had been cut so many times (I’ve also had eight sports-related surgeries during my career to date). I wasn’t sure if Tokyo was going to be an option after my second C-section, however I kept training, gradually increasing the intensity as my body gained strength and then I qualified in January 2020 at my first competition of the season.
I was asking myself, “Should I jump on this journey again?” I needed to take some time to process and acknowledge what I was feeling. I was experiencing some anxiety – thinking, “Am I still able to do this?”