The time I spent with my kids during lockdown was so precious – we’d found a new routine together and made so many beautiful memories, but my mind was still elsewhere. While the postponement meant I didn’t have to constantly train at a high level, I knew I couldn’t slack off for the sake of my mental and physical wellbeing. I needed to maintain my conditioning until we made it out of the other side, so we could reassess our next steps as a team and what the future looked like.
I reflected over a short period on what I was currently going through – the lockdown, the postponement, the lack of international competitions – and came up with a new goal: to make my family and my country proud.
I knew this meant I’d have to make some lifestyle changes and that it would be an even bigger challenge for my family, but I didn’t want to regret anything when I was at the starting line in Tokyo. I wanted to stand there proudly and know I had given it my best shot. I would put my life, love and my heart on the line for New Zealand, and I wanted to bring my very best to the Games. That was the moment I got my head back in the game.